The power of the images and videos from 9/11 can still be felt. We relived that day last year at the 10 year mark. YouTube is filled with graphic videos of that morning. I still find it difficult to scroll through them.
I would imagine at 20 years (2021), the day will still bring up the same emotions. But like other traumatic events of the past like Pearl Harbor, the raw 9/11 memories are gradually fading--though never completely--into the background of our national consciousness as historical distance gives us some temporal separation. Healing takes time.
Below is my post which recounts my 9/11 experience in the studio and newsroom as the events unfolded. I'll never forget it.
My memory of 9/11 actually begins the night before. My wife and I were--let the cold shivers begin--planning a trip to visit her friend in New York City. We were on the web looking at maps of the city familiarizing ourselves with the locations of the tourist attractions in relation to where my wife's friend lived in Queens. At that time, never having traveled to New York City, the NYC street grid was as foreign to me as a city grid of Moscow.
I distinctly remember pointing to several spots on the map of Manhattan and Long Island that I wanted to check out on our trip. Queens, the Statue of Liberty, Central Park, Yankee Stadium, Greenwich Village and the World Trade Center. As we studied the map, I made mental snapshots of the region remembering how far Yankee Stadium was from the subway stop, etc. It was getting late that night. I had to get up to go to work at the local NBC affiliate the next day. I was the morning meteorologist at WSAZ in Huntington, West Virginia back then so I needed to get up at 3AM.
The morning of 9/11 started out as normal as any other day. Our morning show started at 5AM. The news was fairly typically. No outlandish stories. I remember a story about a shark attack if memory serves. The weather was quiet. Blue skies. Comfortable temperatures. I remember a powerful hurricane off of the New England coast named Erin but that was heading away from land. This monster hurricane would be lost in the events of the day.
|Notice the Smoke from the Twin Towers...Erin Offshore|
We had just finished our 8:35AM news cut-in before we "tossed" our morning news to The Today Show. About 8:40AM, The Today Show interrupted their segment for breaking news. They took a quick commercial to get more information. In our studio, we punched up the LIVE New York City NBC off-air camera feed into our in-studio monitors. It showed a fire engulfing multiple floors of The World Trade Center. The fire was big. It captured our attention. But at the time, not one of us watching EVER thought this was linked to something bigger, more global and temporally far-reaching.
One of our camera operators and I commented that it looked like someone hit the building with a rocket launcher from a nearby rooftop. Our conversation was purely speculative, half contrived for the sake of conversation and at the time not a bit realistic. We went back and forth, as news people do, debating how a rocket launcher blast into the 100th floor of a skyscraper was more a subplot of a movie than a plausible real-life event. How could someone get a weapon through a building undetected we both said almost simultaneously? In the span of 15 seconds, we quickly dismissed it.
Our eyes were affixed to the monitors at 8:45AM. I was tense, rigid and more alert. So was my co-anchor. I sat in the weather chair on the right side of the set, he sat to my left. The minutes ticked by with no new information on the fire. Nothing was said but we knew that something wasn't right. We all quietly attempted to persuade ourselves that this was an accident. Some electrical fire. Some gas line rupture. Our hapless action movie-like speculation became seemed inappropriate now. No one was speculating out loud anymore. Everyone was speculating to themselves. The jovial studio banter was replaced with an impaired fixation on the main studio monitor. The silence was palpable. It spoke volumes. Keep in mind at this time, we had no official word it was a jet airliner that hit The World Trade Towers. It was just a big fire. We were still in a commercial break.
A few minutes later, Matt Lauer and Katie Couric came back from the commercial to inform us that the fire was due to a plane impact. Then another plane hit the second tower. This was all LIVE TV! Eye-witness accounts were all they had. Our fixated stares became jarred twitches. We all said "a few colorful words" filled with anger, frustration and horror. We were all stunned. We just listened. Total silence in the studio. No one said anything. No speculation. No talk of Iraq. No commentary on military retaliation. No link to Al-Qaeda. No comparisons to Pearl Harbor. No War in Afghanistan. No WMDs. No Saddam Hussein. No Bin Laden. Nothing prophetic. We sat, stood and watched as the events--whether we wanted them or not--became forever etched in our permanent memories. In no way did I think that these series of events would pervade our collective national consciousness for a YEAR or a decade or longer. At the time, no one did.
In most breaking news situations in a television studio, your body language changes from being relaxed to a one that conveys rigidity and alertness. Your adrenaline surges in controlled doses. Your ability to disseminate massive amounts of information increases while simultaneously conveying the basics of a story in an intelligible way on camera as if scripted. Time doesn't go by slow or fast. It becomes frozen. There is no "did I do this right?" or "Will the segment look okay?". You perform in the present ONLY. Your instincts take over. Only in hindsight do you fully grasp the story and its complexity. Your experience becomes the foundation of your on-air instincts. The morning of 9-11 started out the same as another other 5AM show. Yet the tone of our broadcasts soon became dreadfully different than anything we had done before. That morning, all of our collective television experience and instincts served us perfectly.
The newsroom was scrambling to record the national NBC feed along with all other news feeds from other sources that captured the newest video of what was happening. The news alert beeps were non-ending as more video was ready to be recorded. Remember that this was before computer servers stored news clips. Non-linear computer editing was years away so everything was recorded VCR style. You pushed a new tape in and hit the record button. On this day, the clanking of tapes into tape decks was deafening. Forget real-time Youtube clips. There was no cell-phone video. No text messages. No real-time tweets. No Facebook updates. No Instagram posts. No Snapchat. You waited at a tape deck rack for the satellite to "beam" you latest feed. Nothing was instantaneous. We had time to reflect. Yet no one said "Al-Qaeda". No one said "Bin Laden". No one said "middle east terrorists". No one had any opinion on the events unfolding before their eyes. That would change as I went into my boss's office for my 6 month review.
My boss--now a General Manager at another station--sat down with me shortly after 9AM. We said a few things about my past 6 months work but he was only half paying attention. Ken, my boss--the best multi-tasker I've ever known--was attempting to carry on a meaningful conversation while flipping pages of my file on top of jotting down notes of the coverage on a yellow legal pad balanced on his knee. The ring of his phone every 20 seconds interrupted the chaotic convergence of his tasks. I sat patiently waiting for the whirl of papers above his desk to settle. The phone stopped ringing. His note pad resting on his desk at arm's reach. He paused for a moment, looked out his window into the newsroom then to the bank of TVs on his wall and said, "Its Bin Laden. Its Bin Laden." I said, "Who?". He repeated, "Bin Laden!" In 2001, the name "Osama Bin Laden" for most was unknown. Maybe a few remember him as architect of the USS Cole bombing in 2000. He was certainly not a household name.
My boss had the uncanny ability of having 20/20 hindsight vision...IN THE PRESENT. He could see events happen before they happened then project what the effects the event would cause in the future. In the weeks ahead, my boss's prophetic realization became the most pivotal, surreal memory of that morning.
My review faded into the chaos of the morning. The two attacks in New York City at the World Trade Center. The collapse of both Trade Center towers. Another plane attack, this time into the Pentagon. The other foiled attack on The White House resulting in the crash in Shanksville, PA. All were connected.
The rest of the day was a blur. Normally I take a nap in the afternoon and then work out. I don't think I slept for more than 2 hours at a time in the week that followed. National coverage continued for a week uninterrupted. No commercials. The morning show the following day was all 9/11. The morning show for the next week was all 9/11. Maybe a few basic weather segments of 45 seconds or so to break it up but nothing more No television shows. No entertainment. The focus was covering the aftermath of 9-11. Somehow at the time, it didn't seem enough. Everyone knew life would be different from this point forward.